Session 12

Session 12 Mar 9
I don’t know if it was the pasta or the Ace Bakery toasted bits, or the bread I made and ate a lot of if. Something gave me more gas the than an Alberta well. I was up in the night twice and awake a bunch of times. It was not good. The truth is I don’t know what caused it. Among other things it followed my first treatment in 3 days and on the weekend my gut settled down nicely. My bread didn’t mix properly in the machine and was very dense and probably full of unutilized yeast. The garlic is a possible candidate. Maybe I just ate too much. Since I am already on highly restricted diet eliminating fresh veggies, spice and acidic foods limits my options. Yesterday I was bored and pigged out on bread in various forms thinking it was bland and safe. Not so much safe.

Today I felt much better though a little sleep deprived and made my treatment without having to get up walk. I was apparently not perfect but adequate, the story of my life. My doctor came in to check, maybe because I gave her the pep talk today about a clearer protocol for proceeding when the scanner doesn’t work. She took the feedback with great grace and offered me wisdom about diet and other means of controlling my bowels. I’ll spare you the details. Write if you are as anally preoccupied as me. I have a feeling I am going to have to discipline myself a lot before this is over

The crew on the machine were their usual courteous and cheerful selves and responded very well when I asked for later times on Wed and Thu so I could go to the all day meetings I want to attend. Instead of missing and hour and a half in the middle of the day I will now only have to leave a half hour early. Thanks guys. I have to say that the level of warmth and courtesy from everybody at the Odette Centre is impressive. From reception to therapy they clearly grasp the vulnerability of the people they serve.

A couple of people have responded to reading my blog. I enjoy writing so hearing from you is an appreciated bonus. I’m a little worried about getting repetitious. I have a deeper understanding now about the difficulty of autobiography. I often think of something I’d like to say but realize that I would be sharing not only myself but the people in my life. I haven’t sought that permission so I won’t do that except to say many people who love me have demonstrated that love not about my blog but about me as I get through these days.


PS while looking for the spelling of farfalle I discovered this great pasta list at Wikipedia. Check it out, it’s fun. http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/List_of_pasta